I have been lucky enough to get tickets to go and see the one and only Jessie J live at Edinburgh Castle! I am so excited! The tickets are stuck up on my fridge with a yellow duck magnet, always the safest place to keep things I think.
I can't even put into words how excited I am, I literally have butterflies writing about it!
But I have a dilemma, what should I wear?!
I have two outfits in mind, but I don't know which is best, I need HELP, FAST, because I'm going on Wednesday!
Bearing in mind that my hair will have gone back from pink, to brown. I was toying whether to get my hair done on the day (The hairdressers only spot before the concert was at one o'clock on the actual day!) or go and hang around to see if I could meet Jessie, but my auntie made a good point, she said "Molly, always think 'what would Jessie do?' and in this situation would she wait around to possibly meet a celeb or get her hair done? SHE WOULD GET HER HAIR DONE!"
And she's right, my hair deserves to go back natural, it's looked liked Rudolph's nose for too long!
Okay so music is one thing I can't live without, I am obsessed, it's like a drug. I live by the saying "If the music is too loud, you're too old." because it's true.
I thought it would be interesting to do a "playlist" of my life, but I've done a lot in my fourteen years, and listened to a lot of music. So this is going to be one long playlist! So here it is, if my life were an album, this would be it.
"Unfinished letters, unsent messages"
The album of my life so far.
So I guess the best place to start is my birth, now my song selection for this is a little weird, you can thank my brilliant auntie for that! Obviously I don't remember being born, but the song "Laserlight" by Jessie J reminds my auntie of the day I was born. Once I was born my mum was recovering so my auntie was in a room with me on my own, and I opened my big brown eyes and stared up into hers. So the lyrics
"In the blink of an eye,
I was falling from the sky,
in the blur,
you took my breath away,
and my heart starts beating,
and my lungs start breathing,
and the voice in my head starts screaming,
I'm alive!"
Remind her of the first few minutes of my life.
2. My second track is for London. As a very young girl I lived in East London, it was only for a very short time, but I still claim to be a Londoner, hold on to your roots I say (;
I love London, it's such a diverse city and I plan to live there again some time in my life.
So my second track is Londoner by Chip.
I enjoy dancing around the house singing the chorus at the top of my lungs, annoying everyone around me!
3. So after being born in Canterbury, then moving to London, my parents ditched the rough city lifestyle and moved to North Berwick in Scotland. I have quite a few memories of living here, walking down by the beach, starting at two nurseries "The Honey Pot" and "Busy Bees", (What is it with people giving nurseries and child care facilities bee related names?) spending time with my friend Louise, or as I called her "Weez" and countless trips to the "Birdy Centre" I honestly don't know that places real name, it was always the birdy centre to me!
So because I clearly have to go for a beach themed song for my third track, I'm not going to, because I don't like being obvious! I have chosen Only Love by Ben Howard because this is such a relaxing song!
4 & 5. After living in North Berwick we moved to a small town, it was here that I enjoyed my last year of nursery and my first two years of Primary School. I made some brilliant friends and remember playing imaginary games like "The magical far away tree" with my best friend Amy and "The spaghetti monster" with Amy and our friend Aaron. Me and Amy were inseparable, we did everything together, from saving the world as super heroes to swimming lessons, from swapping toys to hiding from the witch next door! We prided ourselves in our ability of find things, looking back on it it was all junk, but when we were little it was so exciting to find a mini teddy or a jelly car air fresh or even just sweets. Once whilst waiting for our swimming lesson we found two pounds in the crack of a rock. I loved Amy and it feels so weird to be writing this and not knowing what's going on in her life, we went to different schools after primary two, we promised to keep in touch but it didn't happen. It's sad really, we were going to be each others maids of honour at our weddings, but friendships sometimes don't last. I enjoyed my time with Amy, and songs four and five are based on my time with her.
Song four is the YMCA, I remember singing super loud to this with her, not caring what anyone thought! And song five is *major cringe* The Cheeky Song by The Cheeky Girls, we were young and didn't understand that the song was pretty inappropriate to be singing at the top of our lungs where ever we went!
6. After primary two I moved to another small town and joined a new primary school, I started in the Christmas term and soon made friends, so my sixth song will have to be we wish you a merry Christmas!
7. My seventh song is Cotton Eyed Joe, in primary one of the highlights of my year was always sports day! I have never been a sporty girl, but primary sports day was always fun, with the sack race, the egg and spoon and so many more funny races! The only race I have ever won is the three legged race, me and my friend Alice from Velvet Nature were pros at that race! We won two years in a row!
But the best part of sports day was the games afterwards! One of my most fond memories is definitely dancing like a mad thing to cotton eyed joe dripping wet after a water fight!
8, 9 & 10. Now I'm not going to lie, the rest of primary flew by so quickly and I don't remember much, up until primary seven. I had a great time in primary seven and my best memories are of our "Rock Band" topic, where we split up into groups and formed pretend rock bands, we had to do everything from designing albums to planning world tours! It was brilliant! My band was called FlashBack, and that was when my slight emo/scene obsession developed. So my songs for primary seven are The Captain by Biffy Clyro, Orange Crush by R.E.M and That's What You Get by Paramore.
11. My eleventh track is about my first year in secondary. I hated it. Absolutely hated it. Enough said. So my eleventh track it Another Brick In The Wall by Pink Floyd.
12. My twelfth song stands for my second year in secondary school. I hated this year as well. I got bullied because I cut my hair super short, people said I was a lesbian. I got called so many names "Dyke" "Faggot" "Lesbo" "Boy" "Justin Beiber" "Homo" "Dylan" and probably more, I've tried to block it all out! I couldn't walk into class without being ridiculed, I got water, spit, Lucozade and god knows what else tipped on my head on the bus ride home. I hated it so much.
But it made me stronger, so my twelfth song is almost taking the mickey out of myself, I've chosen Dude Looks Like A Lady by Aerosmith. Of course I wasn't a boy who looked like a girl, but I was a girl who supposedly looked like a boy.
13. My thirteenth track is represents how I felt a little while ago, I don't really want to go into detail, but I have chosen Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne.
14 & 15 My fourteen and fifteenth and final tracks are for my cousin Hugo, he is not only my cousin but my best friend, we have had so much fun as children! We had a club "The Love And Hate Club", learnt how to speak "Eggy", built countless dens and rafts and machines, went on camping trips to the "secret beach", lit the biggest craziest fires, make fire torches, had fun, got in trouble and generally had great fun!
Track fourteen is Too close by Alex Clare, because this was our clubs "war chant", cute. And track fifteen is Smoke On The Water by Deep Purple because we loved that song from a very young age and used to beg our dads to play it "As loud as the car radio can and open all the windows so everyone can hear!" We were brilliant fun :P
So here it is, the album of my life so far: 1. Laserlight by Jessie J
You know those moments where you are standing next to an utterly stunning human being and you begin to feel really self conscious? They don't have a hair our of place, all their features are the right size, their makeup is perfect, they are super fashionable and they even smell good. And then there's you with your whacky hair, thick eyeliner and topman T-shirt thinking "Why oh why can't I be them?" We have all experienced this at least once, am I right?
Well, lucky me, my four closest friends are all those sort of people, stunning without really trying to be stunning. Yep, Eilidh, Bluebell, Alice and Mara are four of "those girls" the smart, pretty people who just by standing next to you can make you look like utter dog poo. And I spent most of my time with them!!
I know when they read this they'll be like "Molly don't be silly that's not true!!" but it is! It's not a bad thing, it's almost humorous.
When us five walk together it looks like this
And that is why, although I love them all to bits and wouldn't change them for the world, I don't enjoy having pretty friends!
Marriage equality. A subject that I feel I maybe shouldn't be speaking about as a teenager, but I'm going to, because I feel I need to. I remember a couple of months ago finding a leaflet that had been put through our door, it was talking about how we had to "Save Marriage While We Can" about how gay marriage was wrong, I'm not going to lie, I sat on the floor and read that leaflet from cover to cover, and cried.
Why is our world such a judgemental place? I believe that no matter where in the world you live that you should be allowed to love and be proud to love. Now call me naive but I really don't think being gay is a punishable sin. People should not be ridiculed for their beliefs, their skin colour, their gender or their sexual orientation.
If you love someone, you love someone. Love is love and it's a beautiful thing, whether it's boy-girl, boy-boy or girl-girl.
In eighteen states it is illegal to refuse a gay person service, we SHOULDN'T NEED that law. People are people whether they are gay, lesbian, bisexual, heterosexual or transgender. That's like someone walking into a cafe and me going "You're blonde, I'm not serving you." it's completely ridiculous. And I know people will think "No Molly that's different, sexuality and hair colour are totally different." I know they are different, but it's the same thing, it's discrimination.
In some countries it's ILLEGAL to be homosexual. WHAT?!
Does it matter whether I want to spend the rest of my life with a man or a woman? There's NO difference.
Jessie J said, "I'm not bisexual, I'm not a lesbian, I'm not straight, if I like a girl I like a girl, if I like a guy I like a guy" And she is so right, why do we have to make such a big deal about it! At the age of fourteen, I don't know who I am yet, but I don't want to be told that if I don't marry a man then that's weird.
I want to marry who ever I please, and why can't some people accept that?
Macklemore. He is a man I respect, and his song "Same Love" brings a tear to my eye every time, he is so right!
And then there's Jessie J, I am proud to say she is my idol, a beautiful woman with a beautiful out look on life!
I was reading the comments on a YouTube video of her the other day and someone had said
"Oh Jessie , I really loved you. You were a great song writer and singer ..... so yh why do you have to be bi? im not being rude or anything . its her life .she CAN DO whatever SHE WANTS WITH IT. but now im not sure if i like you any more..... I always used to listen to ur songs . :("
WHAT?! Okay I mean everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but this is a little weird, why should her being bisexual change anything?
Jessie was brave enough to openly talk about her sexuality and dedicate her song to a girl, I honestly do not see why that should make her lose fans!
I just feel that we should love people for WHO they are not WHAT they are, that's all.
My title (Lyrics from "The liar and the lighter") was not referring to me and another human being, nope, I was talking about my relationship with my hair. Because we definitely were not in love, a year ago I decided it would be a great idea to *STUPID IDEA ALERT* cut off almost all my hair.
The thoughts were that
a) It would be really unique and cool
and
b) I would never have to style it
Yep, that was how I thought of it. Never did I think "Hmm, I might regret this because I won't have any hair to do anything with, it is a big decision to make and if I ever to want it back it will take a long time to grow."
If only I had thought any of those things and held off the chop, but no, I wanted to be different.
And now a year on, I'm still sat here with hella short hair, wanting it back!
This is probably about the third time I've said I'm growing it back, but I am determined now!!
I miss being able to do things with my hair, I hate having a god awful Bieber flick
and I don't like looking like a guy!
But now I'm thinking, WHAT STYLE DO I GO FOR ONCE I FINALLY HAVE HAIR?!
So here are a couple of ideas I liked, I am totally rubbish at making decisions, so these are just things I like the look of.
The Leah Look
I've been a fan of Leah since last year, and have always loved her signature look, her full block colour fringe is amazing!!
Could I go scene?
In my last year of primary I developed I complete obsession with scene haircuts, and I think that obsession may be coming back. I think they are totally cute! And I do tend to wear a lot of eye liner. Could I pull it off or would I just look uber Gothic?
Could I go all New Girl?
I looooove Zooey Deschanel, and her hair is just so cute and preppy. I seem to be leaning towards the whole fringe thing, and if I decided to go like Zooey then I could go back to my natural colour, YAY!!
Pleeaasseee leave me any hair ideas, because I NEED INSPO!!
Okay so I'm a huge music addict, I'm not one of those people who are like "It's not in the charts so it's not cool." NO WAY! The more unknown the better!
Now this woman isn't very unknown, but she's not exactly very "2013".
Kyla la Grange, with the voice of an angel I'm shocked she isn't up there in the charts right now. Her album "Ashes" came out last year, usually I get bored of albums after a while, but Kyla's has actually grown on me with time, I loved it at the start, and I ADORE it now!
If you ever wondered what you would get if you mixed Florence and the Machine and Lana Del Ray, here's your answer. I don't like comparing artists with other artists because I know they are all out there doing their own thing, but it is crazy how much Kyla sounds like a Lana-Florence collab, and not in a copying way, in an "Oh my goodness why isn't all music like this, it is perfection" way.
Kyla is from Watford in England, but her mum is South African and her dad, Zimbabwean.
She studied philosophy at Cambridge uni.
She is currently in the studio writing her second album, which I can NOT wait for! And hopefully with that album will come a tour, if that's so I will DEFFO be there!
